I'm really sorry I've been so. . . away for the past. . . entire time I've been here. I'm really going to try to be more active. I promise

The oil painting class I'm taking at school has been going really well. I find painting to be a rather strange experience. Painting is a very relaxing. It's very calming and quiet. But at the same time, if things aren't going well, it causes me to stress about how well the painting will turn out to be. Because of this, I'm very confused as to whether or not I actually like painting. But I must say, it is far more difficult than digital painting.

I've been so overloaded with homework lately. I've heard that junior year of high school is the hardest, and I guess it must be true. I barely have any time to draw or do anything else (I haven't been able to do any of my art homework for several weeks. oops.) Because of this, I gave up on Nanowrimo before the end of the first week. Whenever I have several hours of free time on weekends, I'd rather just browse Youtube for few hours.
Basically the only reason I'm writing this journal entry is because I have to do a lab report for chemistry and a paper for history. Oh jeez.

I just want to say that somehow I broke all the known laws of nature and received a 99% on my report card for my smart people's chemistry class. I have no idea how that happened. It must be a mistake.

For the past few weeks (the past few days especially), I've sort of been having a nervous breakdown about what I'm going to go to college for. I mean, honestly, late in high school you're supposed to know what you want to be when you grow up. For the past year, I've been pretty sure that I want to go into graphic design, animation or illustration. But my frustration in painting class and my lack of motivation to do anything artistic other than doodling in class has made me question my decisions. I've fallen into a major rut in artistic confidence. I don't know. Because of my recent grades, I should just become a chemist or something.... BLAH. What do you guys think?


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